I occasionally vent about the hard times I've had in the past.

It's my own fault that we couldn't get along well, but he's not a typical guy.

Anyway, it was hard.

After we got married, my husband would go to slot machines whenever he had time.

When we got married, I was paying off the debts of my parents' house, and I couldn't keep my promise to live together, so I said I was getting a divorce! and ran away from my parents' house.

(I didn't expect my husband to come with me. Because even after talking to him for a year, he just said it was impossible to leave my parents' house.)

I continued to pay back the debts from my husband's salary.

All other rent and living expenses were paid for with my salary.

Even after paying off his debts, my husband still had some leeway and didn't seem to mind spending money on slot machines.

After we finished paying off the debts, we were able to think about whether to have a child, and we finally felt like we could live our lives the way we wanted to, and thankfully we had a child.

There were a lot of things that happened during my pregnancy...

Even after I quit my job and money became tight, my husband still spent money and time on slot machines.

Life hasn't changed at all.

My husband is tight on food expenses.

We don't have any money.

We're in debt.

When I told him about it, he just said, "Just withdraw the money."

My husband seems to think that it's fine as long as he can get money from the ATM, so he doesn't seem to mind at all.

At the time, our bankbook was a general bankbook, so when I used my cash card to withdraw money from the ATM, after the balance reached zero, it showed a negative number, but I could still withdraw money.

A system that makes it easy to get into debt.

As expected, the debt grew to 50,000, 100,000... and I paid it off with my savings.

Then, when I found out he had a debt of 300,000, I took away all of my husband's bankbooks and cash cards into which his salary was deposited.

"I've been keeping our finances separate so that you wouldn't feel cramped in your marriage, but even though our family is growing, it seems like you can't manage it, so I'll manage it. Please give us an allowance."

I was so embarrassed when I put the money I had been saving little by little to go to Disneyland into an ATM to pay off my debt...

Reality doesn't go as expected

My husband seemed quite unhappy, but he gave me the money because we had often talked about it before

At that time, I didn't know about side jobs, and I didn't even try to find out.

I was just desperate to make ends meet

I wanted to drink the 100 yen coffee at the convenience store, but I couldn't buy it. That's the kind of life I was living.

I'll continue this story next time